Sleep?

Honestly, I don't remember what a uninterrupted 8 hours of sleep feels like anymore.  Heck I don't even know what an uninterrupted 4 hours feels like.  I swear the moment I decide to go to sleep, doesn't matter what time it is, could be 9:30, 10:30, 11:00, and midnight.  It doesn't matter what time, but the moment I get comfy cozy in my bed I hear stirring followed by crying.

I then get out of bed walk through the house to the nursery.  I give my baby her pacifier and bunny.  I then try and slip out quietly back to my room.  I sit there and hope that will suffice her.  Sometimes it does and sometimes it doesn't.  Like last night it didn't work.  I was barely out her door when she started crying again.  Like all good moms I can tell that this cry is serious business.  She's not going to stop until I nurse her.  So I go back nurse her and give her a quick diaper change.  Thirty minutes later I'm back in my bed.  Four hours later I hear more crying.  I go to the nursery and she's rolled over on her stomach holding her head up.  I know she's not going to go back to sleep without a fight.  I'm tired so I do what any sleep deprived mom would do, I nurse.  I lay my baby back in her crib and she instantly starts crying.  I rock her a few minutes and then put her back in her crib, she's good.  I slip out and back to my bed.  Then 3 hours later she's up for the day.

This is what a typical night for me and my almost 9 month old baby is like.  Some nights are better and some are worse.  For instance the night before she teased me with only waking up once at 11:30 pm and then not waking up again till 7:00 am.  That was HEAVEN for me.

I've seriously tried everything to get her to sleep through the night.  We've let her cry it out.  Forty minutes later she's still going strong.  She's seriously the most stubborn baby when it comes to sleeping at night.  She does great for her naps.  I've threatened to my husband that I'm done and we are switching to the bottle so I can get one good night of sleep.  But then I tell myself, "You only have 3 months left, you can do it.  You've already done it for 9 months."

I know that this soon will pass and she will be grown.  There are many nights that I do enjoy our time together.  The house is nice and peaceful and even though I 'm tired my baby always makes me smile. The intoxicating smell of baby smells even stronger at night.  Okay so maybe there are some positives to losing sleep.

Photo from Baby Center